#notetoself

 I never thought the story between me and her will came back freshly to my mind as I enjoyed everything around me now. I have goods friends, met good people and have a quality time with the people I love.  I know, she taught me things, dont put hope on others, dont hope too much, dont give lots of efforts when other side just not care and everything else. Honestly, I learnt a lot from her, I endure the pain of losing a best friend (for me of course)  and I learnt that not everyone around us yang datang dalam hidup seikhlasnya untuk kenal kita. I learnt that there is a people that will come straight to your face just to tell that she cant accept you, she cant be with you anymore because you are not a good person. She taught me important lesson. Im mad at myself when I see I put lots of efforts (read: beria)  on us after everything I went through because of her.  There are lots of time I cried alone, thinking about it when it crossed my mind. Because everyone around me dont deserve to li

 It's already 2023. There are lots of happiness comes in 2023. But, there is also sadness and miserable things happened. However, I did not remember any of them. I learn how to move on, forget things that make me sad and be happy as I should.  March 2023, I started my long distance relationship with him, my love. Tough enough, miss him everyday and wondering what I can do to meet him and everything. I guess, my clinginess becomes high but my maturity came forward. Being far away teach me more than everything and I really grateful that I meet him, Azizul Hakim. Someone that I went through lots of ups and downs.  I get to understand our relationship more, getting to see how sweet Azizul handle me when I am far away from him. All the attentions and care that he shows, I started to think that I did not deserve any parts of him. But, that's the reason for me to be better and keep getting better because all I want is him for my future.  Thank you Allah for sending me to him. Please,